Law and Order SVU

I have loved SVU for years now. But lately, episodes can send me to tears and leave me thinking about characters for hours after the show ends.

Some of my favorite episodes, I can't wait at all...the one with the little boy who kills his toddler neighbor.  Is labeled a sociopath and deemed untreatable. Killed by the father of the little boy he tortured/killed. Because he knows the boy will kill again and fill no regret.

Can't do it.

I just watched one where an abusive husband kills his wife. It's later revealed that the downstairs neighbor killed her abusive husband 25 years before and has been on the run since then...the way she tells her story is heartbreaking.

I'm guessing this is happening now because I know I'm about to be thrown into a world where these are just fictional characters. The abused wife will be a client. The little boy who feels no regret will count on me to do what's best.

I won't be able to turn off the TV and forget about these people. They'll be real.

I don't know if I'll be able to handle SVU much longer...we'll see.

PS - thank you for all the kind feedback!  

Role-playing

We worked on therapy sessions today.

It was quite interesting. I've thought about counseling for some time.  I'm not quite sure how I feel about it though.  I've been in therapy twice and though it helped...I feel as if a person can always be in therapy. There's always more to work, always something you're holding back, always something in the past holding you back...

It's so hard to gain someone's trust. What makes me worthy of that trust?

We play our videos next week and will get feedback from the class.  They only had to be 10 minutes, so we didn't have a chance to do much and of course it was easy to figure out everyone's problem in those 10 little minutes.

If only it could all be so easy...

In a helping profession...

and someone leaves you helpless.

A fellow student, one I actually know, was in a hit and run this past Tuesday. She was running before class and a car hit her. Since she had no ID, no one knew who she was for 30 hours.

I know I would be devastated if I hit someone and maybe...leaving would cross my mind. But I don't think I could ever actually leave someone on the side of the rode.

Next semester we will be in our placements and I know I will probably feel helpless at times. I feel like we're going to be thrown in, head first, sink or swim. A lot of things are rushing through my mind: I'm not old enough for this. I don't look old enough for this. People aren't going to take me seriously; clients or coworkers. etc.

In my Human Behavior class we were analyzing a case in which a client was in a facility for 2 months and admitted in an evaluation that she had been sexually abused. Our professor's point was up until that point, the social worker was not really considered a part of the team.  Not seen as equal. Happens a lot evidently....

Hello world!

Hello world was the first output we had in my high school computer science class. I figure it fits here too.

I'm brand spankin' new to the field of social work. I'm scared out of my mind...and excited.

Right now we are in our first round of classes, 5 to be exact.  Next semester we will be spending 16 hours a week in the field, in addition to a few classes.

I'm feeling quite unprepared for next semester and a real burden of responsibility. I mean, these are people's lives we're talking about!